Summer to-do list 2012

Summer to-do list 2012:

1. Improve and buy my poi
2. Tone up
3. Smoke/Drink less
4. Upload lots more music
5. Pass summer classes
6. Get a job/make money
7. Go to beach w/ friends
8. Restart skateboarding
9. Sneak out & have fun
10. Never lose my baby <3

You promised you wouldn't hurt like the rest

Today marks the 2 year anniversary of when we started dating. Now 2 years later we just won;t talk to each other at all. We were so inceperable even after we broke up, like we never did in the first place. I don't think I can hate you. You made me who I am today. You've made me strong, wiser, more confident, happy....hopefully I have impacted your life in a positive way. You've seen me a my worst and I can't believe that it doesn't even matter anymore. I was always afraid of someone coming between us but that would be both our faults.....as I'm typing this our song "Thunder" by Boys like Girls is playing. For a good while I couldn't sing this song without crying at the fact that I can't text you to tell you that its playing and that we sing it together. Do you feel my pain? Do you think of me Bubbie? Without you I've done some stupid stupid things I know I wouldn't do if you were still watching over me. I know you'll be disappointed :) but you weren't there, you couldn't save me from the path that I've taken. At this point, nothing can turns this...or us around. Sadly, I don't see us talking so I'll make this my final farewell